Hey!..well,as a matter of fact , i don't know if talking more is the solution..let me be honest with u,i've tried both ways,to communicate with people you might be more misunderstood and also to stay silent you'd be considered a depressed sad person so i guess both ways people never get satisfied..so,i'd rather be myself than being who others want me to be.About this year,i think u're right,it's only this year which will decide who is every person..this year everyone is choosing who he is or who he wanna be
Be sure that by working hard enough,setting ur goals,focusing on ur needs you'll absoulotely reach success,in whatever field you've chosen.
But my advice to u is to stop thinking with your heart,cause sometimes it's the false choice.
wishing u the best forever,me.