Seems a bit lonely?

"There is always someone to blame
for the things you do yourself
you think that everything that's going wrong
is because of someone else"..
I've heared those words , I feel lonely..no friends..not able to breathe much..everything is happening so fast..so fast that yet,most things i can't believe.I want to say life is beautiful cause it is,i want to say i am okay..cause i am,I want to be faithful,cold,strong and happy cause that's the way to live. I want to say that my friends are no liers,not fake but they are.I don't want to be a perfectionist or a loser or a lier or a fake or a weak or a poor or a hollow person.
I don't want to lose control of my feelings and my hopes.I don't want to be missing.I don't want to be puzzeled.I don't want to be depressed but.. how can a person achieve all of this? why do we blame others for things we've done to ourselves? why do we usually lose control of our feeling? why do we become blinded by selfishness and greed?

I live between walls of my own
and a non-ending wonder
a fact keeps stapping in my pain
blows and blows a burning thunder
blank papers
a full-inked pen
droplets of musery
i count a thousand ten
glad memories
can not be wrote
forget the passing tears
and the fire they have brought
a smile was grabbed to my lips
by the power of your words
and the insist of humanity
to use invisible swords
cause now
i've not reached my end
i've not began my dreams
i am just stuck in between
life and death
i am too lonely to think
of a way to your heart
cause i've tried to forgive
and only broke apart
there's always someone
to blame
for the things you do to yourself
you think that everything that's going wrong
is because of someone else..

seems a bit lonely?!

Seems a bit lonley, in fact
but what a wonderful poem written in a dreamy language that really makes me melt away. Bitter sweet.

Melted nini

thank u..